- Today's suggested practice: Day 30 of seven minutes to enjoy the silence ... (see below)
- My playlist while writing today's meditation: Ketī Chutī Nāl, Suniai
- My morning practice: 75 minutes of physical, yogic, and meditative practice, including Linking with the Infinite mantra and pranayama, and Solving Communication Problems kriya
- My vulnerability practice: Feeling my neediness, my constant demand for attention, a little less. Trusting myself to lead as I surrender to trusting her flow...
- See note (below) on other ways to deepen your own art of love...
—Hans Peter Meyer
TODAY'S MEDITATION Unfortunately for those of us who are masculine-identified and want everything to be spelled out, there is no how-to manual for trust. There is only the hard road of poetry. Of ambiguity and subtlety. Of feeling into Her and through feeling her, learning the art of my vulnerability.
I am willing, even when afraid, to walk this road and to learn this poetry because this I know to be true: There is no love without trust. There is no life worth living without love. So I choose this apprenticeship to love, to master the art of trust, this dance of vulnerability.
In a conversation with a younger friend recently: There is sexual satisfaction beyond the play of our genitals. This person is still at an age where sexuality is held hostage —by what David Deida calls our "monkey body," by an unsubtle neediness for physical intimacy and, for most of us who are in men's bodies, ejaculation. What I am learning as I explore this poetry of and the dialectics of trust is that there are moments when, being so much more sensitive than I was even a two or three years ago, the sounds she makes while eating the food I've prepared satisfies me sexually. That it is enough for me to see deep into the wet of her eyes to know my sexual depth as a man. In these, and similar moments, I know my artistry as I feel into and enjoy trust blossoming in her heart, her body, in ways neither of us imagined. This, I am discovering, is my true mastery of my art as a lover, so much more than the neediness of her physical pleasure or my ejaculation.
I lead as this artist of love by following the follow. By, as John Wineland so often says, "feeling into her." Not physically, but energetically. Becoming silent. Still. Still enough to feel her surrender, and, following her surrender, I am moved me to become vulnerable, and even more vulnerable. I am moved to become ever more willing to receive. Feeling me feeling into her, feeling my vulnerability, and held in the structure of my powerful presence, my beloved surrenders deeper into her bliss. She becomes ever more radiant. And this dance deepens as I follow her radiance beyond my knowledge.
TODAY’S INSPIRATIONS🌀…what does it take to relax into not knowing? What does it take to surrender our frantic mental activity that is trying to figure it all out?
Trust. (Tim and Marieke, Kundalini Yoga School)
🌀Suni-ai means listening.
The silent mind is compassionate, reaches patience and wisdom and intuition. The silent mind contains all the peace and joy of its existence. (Patricia Lemos)
🌀I never imagined myself coming to you like this. (My beloved, my Oracle)
TODAY'S SUGGESTED PRACTICE Day 30 of this month's practice, seven minutes to hold space for yourself to slow down and enjoy the overwhelm...
Please read through first, then ...
- Today there is no video, no sound to accompany you on your seven minutes... Instead listen to the wisdom of the silence, Suniai
- Set your timer for seven minutes.
- Sit. Align yourself. Breath slowly through your nose. Tuck your chin and feel your spine and your heart drawn upward, opening .... Close your eyes.
- Feel into the stillness and silence of your body. Be entirely OK with feeling nothing special, hearing nothing special, noticing nothing special, thinking nothing special.... Just listen and feel into the emptiness of your stillness, your silence...
- Trust yourself in this stillness, this silence. Trust yourself to become still and silent. Trust yourself to hold whatever may or may not come to you.
- Slow your breath even more and feel even deeper into the emptiness of this moment... Your breath holds the space. Your posture holds this space. You, doing nothing but sitting and breathing and feeling into this still, silent moment, is all that is required.
- As the timer signals the end of this seven minutes allow yourself to soften and open your eyes. As you step into the rest of your day bring your awareness of your own inner depth into every moment... Every one of us needs to feel this stillness in ourselves, and in each other. This is how we open to the love that lies in our depths.
NOTE ON OTHER PATHS TO DEEPENING YOUR ART OF LOVE
- Starting May 31, 2022 Tim and Marieke at the online Kundalini Yoga School are offering a 40-day practice on Infinite Trust. Recommended.
- Learning to dance Argentine tango. I say it often: this dance, which rewards patience and practice like no other, is a beautiful expression of this yoga of sexual polarities. I encourage you to take private lessons with a teacher who is sensitive to the subtleties of masculine/feminine polarities. They may not speak this language of the yoga of sexual polarities, but I have benefited profoundly from these teachers: Luciano Brigante and Alejandra Orozco at Tango Brigante (Mexico), Federico Farfaro (Berlin), Dominic Bridge (Portland/Berlin), Alex Krebs (Portland). (If you can't do in-person or online lessons with these teachers, I offer online tango coaching.)
More meditations, practices, and inspirations at apprenticeshiptolove.com